it was gone

"the heart rate is dropping!" " blood pressure is going to low" "turn on the CV now!"
"mum? what's going on! HEY ! someone ANSWER ME! DAMN IT"


The day was bright, the trees rustled gently in the wind. Pastor Dean came with his bible and read to Kim. No matter how the words of God entered her ears, running impluses through her brain. Kim's tear ducts was blocked, she stood above the hole and looked down on mummy.

She was dressed in a black dress , her hair was nicely combed back and her lips were rose red.She looked so young so alive back to the image kim always had. yet kim was unable to cry her pain out, she had so few years with mummy. if only mummy wasn't in her coma maybe kim could had more time with her.

" It was daddy's fault wasnt it mummy?" she whispered softly as she looked mummy. Her hand tight around the edge of her dress as she spoke, it was him. The man behind all these , it wasnt mummy who wanted all these to happen. That man has to pay for what he caused , kim clenched her fist harder and her heart raced as her hatred grew stronger and stronger.

The morbid humans with white lilies walked round the closed coffin and threw their love into what will be buried beneath the ground they stood. the silent weeping broke the silence, the sound of people patting the backs of the weeping souls, everything just irritated kim.

For that night, Kim sat by the windows looking out at the moon. she ate nothing, she said nothing. We lost that girl to the world of silence.

She Needed more

Silence is important in the hospital, it is where patients finally get to rest. some for a few hours, days, months, years. loved ones just watch as their precious lay on the bed, it is a place where new souls are born and some souls are taken away. Kim never liked this place , it could have been due to the fact that everytime she's here memories never seem to escape her mind.

"hi mum!" kim rushed to the bed and sat beside mummy.
"look mum, the sky is so lovely today! You have to get up and see this!"

"ah. who am i fooling mum? you been here since that day, you aged but you never woke up. why did this all happen mum? get up and tell me! MUM please get up soon" Kim fell beside mummy and cried again.

just then , Nurse june walked past and saw kim's back in the room. June can't help but feel sorry for Kim , the event was 12 years ago. June could clearly remember how small kim was when she was brought in , that pale looking girl hugging her bear with eyes all red. June had to dress Kim's wounds that night and june thought to herself . For a small girl to bear such a pain, the wound on her back and her mother in coma. June felt sadness for her and wanted to cheer her up.

" hi little girl, what your name?"
"kim. my mummy said i am kimberly but everyone calls me kim."
"oh kimberly it is a nice name isn't it. so how about mr bear there?"
"you know mr bear too?mr bear was a gift from daddy last christmas, but i dont know where is daddy now. don't tell daddy about mummy okie? i don't think daddy will be happy if he saw mummy so sick. mummy will be okie soon right so no need to worry daddy!" Kim beams at june.

June can't help but gave kim a hug, a small girl to be so sensible and to have remain this cool .

"erm, sister? what's your name?"
"june , call me june"
" so june jie jie you will be here looking after mummy and me? "
"yes i will be, i am a nurse here looking after you is my job isn't it" June smiled and patted kim on her head

"ok! i will tell mummy! she will be happy to know she got a nice lady looking after her! And me too! " kim giggled happily but the laughter triggered the wound to hurt again. Kim fainted into June's arms.

she needed

She needed something , something to bring her out of her darkness again. Too much is happening and the light in her died together with her soul locked up in the whirlpool of the sea.

"Mummy? Mummy? Daddy!? "
" where's everyone ?"

the tiny steps walked around and slowly up the stairs. the house was dimmed , barely anyone at home. the room door was left opened, she walked in.

"mummy? i am home, Grand pa jacks got me something for you! "

"go ahead kim. i am tired"

" mummy what's wrong , you sound unwell"

" GO AWAY KIM! GET OUT!"

her eyes widen when she saw what was in front of her , blood . Blood flowing out the pale wrist of mummy.

" mummy ! i get the doctor! "
" KIM ! GET OUT! GO AWAY! let me die"
" no mummy please don't do that! i am scared mummy."

the metal hit the ground, tears flow out of mummy's eyes. she cried and cried till there was no more noise. Kim rush to mummy, mummy lay still on the floor. Caught in a situation like this, she didnt know what to do. she ran out.

"someone please help me !! mummy mummy , she's not moving!"

siren drowned all the noise and gossiping of the onlookers, paramedics rushed out with a pale looking lady in the stretcher. As she was carried out , the gossiping grew louder. kim was looking out through the window of her room. Hugging her knees, she couldnt find daddy, she couldnt hug mummy . She felt fear , she felt lonely. Tears filled her eyes and washed the blood off her cheeks and darkness entered.

"morning Kim! time for school!!"
"5 mins aunt claire!"
"u little brat get ya butt out of the bed or i will drag you out myself !"


The sun shone brightly through the window causing kim to cover her eyes from the sudden brightness. Another day to survive, another day to endure, she stretched and head to get ready for school.

As she walked to the toilet, she scrutinise her face in the mirror above the sink. Black eyes, dark locks of hair she seem almost like emily the strange. She caught a gleam of her scar on her back as she washed up and thoughts came back to haunt her.

" KIM ! do you want to be with mummy?"
"yes mummy i do!"
" that's my girl , come to me and let's be together forever. daddy's gone he's not coming back any more. "

just as the blade raised high to pierce through kim, mummy felt a sharp pain on her and released the grip. the blade fell on kim's back leaving a cut on her soft flesh.

"KIMBERLY JEANS! ARE YOU COMING DOWN ANY SOON! CHRISTMAS IS NOT COMING IN 5 MINS ! "

She shook out of the darkness and quickly dressed to meet aunt claire. been 12 years with aunt claire since the nightmare yet she was finding it so hard to let it go.

" kim! goodness why can't you young people dress something more decent. you are no lack of black coming from your eyes and your hair and you still have to dress up in nothing but black!"

" oh aunt claire , this is gothic! everyone loves it"

" one more rubbish from you young lady the only gothic you are getting is going to the attic to sleep"

rolling her eyes, she grabbed her lunch and out she went. everyone greeted her but yet she could still hear the whisper trailing behind her. Can't humans ever forget the past and just let me be me? her thoughts just went, if it wasn't for that incident that night, kim could have to turned out to be a totally different girl. she couldnt see the light in the day , she embraced the cold and loneliness that darkness provided her. she just wanted to be loved again but she knows her wish is never gonna happen again. ever again. Aunt claire was motherly but she wasnt it, she wasnt kim's.